Well- the girl he "met" was actually someone he "met" on the net almost a year ago. The very night, the very moment actually, he was en route to pick her up for their first meeting/date, she was being violently raped in the train station after just having dropped her sister off.
They never ended up going out that night, obviously, and shortly thereafter she decided to go abroad to find herself for six months. She got home, got in touch with him, he let me know she was back around and we parted ways.
Well we all know what happened with C. I guess, or do we. But with M. and his girl, things have been going similarly fucked-uppedly. She, obviously, six months after being raped is not a prime candidate for a new, healthy and happy relationship with a man. She freaks out sometimes when they start getting physical... flakes out on him, sometimes without even calling, half of the time they have plans. And poor M... he is the most patient, kind person I've known anyway, and exponentially more so when it's a girl hes all nuts about.
So needless to say, he's a basket case every time she disappears, or flakes.
We talked tonight for 3 hours and I feel like I was finally able to give something back to him. After how I treated him when I myself was crazy two years ago, and lately when he's been patiently listening to me talk about C., it felt so good to know he felt like he could lean on me. When we were hanging up, he said something like, "i was looking for you," meaning, he wanted to talk to me, specifically. I felt so incredibly valuable. I love M. and it is amazing how whenever he is focused on someone else... I always think I could be in love with him. But then when there is no one else, and he's around for me only- I get scared.
If I somehow end up with M... I swear to God I will make a concerted effort every day to remember how incredibly awesome he is.
© beotch at
1:29 a.m.
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